I passed through a mystical experience
at 4:30 A.M. today… and it carried me a step towards my goal of unifying the split
in the psyche between the spirit and the flesh.
Make no mistake, the spiritual and the
erotic both partake of the infinite atoms
and energies of the same universe. There
is nothing, not even E.S.P., not even union
with God, nothing that is not corporeal.
Atoms and energies take part in both experiences, in fact in all events that happen
through the medium of the human brain…
So why do we revere the spiritual
and denigrate the physical? (Same old
question on this site.)
I had a transcendent experience
this morning. I felt Aphrodite smile
within me. I felt Her smile with mercy
within my heart…I felt Her tender
What had I been doing before
this? I had been obsessing with
sexual desire focusing on psychological
fetish. I had been focusing for hours
on various aspects of the beauty
of women, the beauty of womanhood,
feeling passion and devotion.
It was then I felt the transcendent
presence of Aphrodite within me.
The sense I got was that the energies
of the Father God, God of Abraham, God who
opens the clouds,Lord of the meeting rivers;
the God of Christ and the prophets…that the chaste communion with the one who is creating us
could meld and merge into the love of Aphrodite – that the two divinities
were one in the same, especially
through the prism and the
mirror of FORGIVENESS.
I felt this. I sensed this: that the
two energies partake of one divinity –
that He and She are of the Same.
“I am he who is of the Same.”
Christ said this in the Gospel of Thomas.
And Christ forgave Mary Magdalene.
She was His beloved companion, so much
so that some of the other disciples were
jealous that He spent so much time
with her. (see The Gospel of Philip)
Mystical experiences are not
experiences that can be explained
I attempted to express
the feeling I had in the presence of
Aphrodite with the following poem.
I’m pretty sure the poem needs more
work, more detail. But so far,
this is the attempt.
ZION DREAM: MAGDALENE AND APHRODITE
I believe in spiritual love
the love of the one
whom we keep
denying the existence
of the one we
I believe in sexual love
the cruelties and the
mercy of the Goddess
I am not sure which is higher
or sexual love
and I don’t care which
She has taken
every part of me
my sex and
soul and heart
I have given you
all my songs
I am left standing
on the shore of the beautiful
watching the shades
feeding on what’s left
of the flesh?
I have nothing more to say
about higher or
there is divinity
at every turn
blindly in the dark
I feel my way
the inner glow
of your embrace
feeling my way
guided by the warmth
of Your smile
rubies are hanging
from the trees.
THROUGH US THE EARTH COMES
TO KNOW ITSELF